Looking out my truck window…

Well enjoy this sunny afternoon as the sun will be setting in a few hours or less here. I was thinking about them new beginnings and what they really mean to me. And on my drive to see my grandfather today I was looking outside my window and seeing all the beauty that this Earth has provided for me in all the years that I have been living. And I first thought to myself how lucky I really am to be alive. I mean a few months ago was a different story which you all know from my past posts. But getting back here to what I am saying, I just found it so amazing like a child in a candy store trying to pick out what piece of candy I wanted. I felt like I was seven years old and it reminded me of the simple things that I had in my life when I was that child. It also helped me realize that my little coyote is where I was when I was that small. And it made me feel like that I have to step my game up and be a better father to her from this point forward in the sense of teaching her the simple things that I was seeing in this life when I was a smaller child then I am now. 

With that said I have a new beginning with my daughter in the sense of coming down to her level more. Being where I was at my point of my life serves no purpose to thinking my little coyote was 41 years old. I had to remember that she was only 6. So, I am going to make some healthy changes in what I need to do, and that is again showing my little coyote that life has it purposes, and it’s meanings. And I have a funny way that she is going to continue to school me in this process as well. Time will tell in the end. And I know that this is going to take time for me, I know that it won’t happen in a days time.

So these were a few things that I thought about today on that drive to my grandfathers house. I was so amazed by what is in front of me and that is my life, and that I have a lot to live for yet. And this process again is going to be a long road, but people like my dragon and tiger spirit are there for me, and I am happy that they are because I feel that they are needed in my life. How they are needed I let that for the Gods to figure that part out. But I look forward to any help that I can get from these two special people in my life. So I will close this by saying that I am taking small steps, and I mean small steps and that is what I am going to continue to do. Take my right foot and put it over my left at this very moment. I will be keeping you more posted as the days keep moving forward. Take care once again of yourself and the others around you…

12 thoughts on “Looking out my truck window…

  1. I say it again and you are on your way. You have made up your mind to live and you are taking note of the little things around you. Time slowing down and it needs to. You need to see things in a lighter form and you need to remember to allow yourself a little fun.
    You are leveling with your little coyote and while it is important you spend time with her everyday, during this small walks etc. maybe you plan something once a week, something special that you both can do. Go fly a kite together, brush the horses together, have that tea party, give the pooch a bath, do. arts and crafts and color, you’d be amazed how relaxing it is.
    That along with eating better is a huge step in the right direction and I’m happy you are finding reasons to live and go on. 😉

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      1. You did say on your prior answer that that is what scares you and that’s why I asked. But if you are now saying that you are not afraid of anything, I’ll leave it at that.
        I just try to know what’s going on in your mind, so I can try to probably help. I can’t find out a week later that you have been in pain and bleeding. I won’t be any help here then.


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